THE 68TH BLOG

so i had that morning period today

where i had the priviledge of spending my morning with the scariest teacher ever T__T

it was horrible

and i was tired...

lucky for me i didn't have a period 6 today

i don't have any period 6's anymore :D!

BUT they've all been combined into a 4 hour long music class instead of sport 

meaning i leave school at around 4:30-5:00

T_______________T

well i guess it's better than having period 6's 

not to mention none of that having-class-till-8-at-night rumour


i just got back home from piano
and she raged at me in the car
she got angry because of the smallest little thing
and she says that i'm the one with a bad temper

maths
she thinks maths is everything
she's always has thought that
just because i don't do 4 unit maths she thinks i'm won't get a good uai
just because i don't do 4 unit maths she thinks i won't get into uni
just because i don't do 4 unit maths i'm the equivalent of a failure
i dropped down and i got good marks in maths
but because it wasn't 4 unit maths
she didn't care


i don't even bother showing her my marks anymore
no matter how good they may be
she doesn't care
she doesn't see the good marks
she only sees the bad marks


if i come 26th she rages at me and says i can do better
if i come 2nd she rages at me and says that i should be 1st
if i come 1st she doesn't give a damn


she never cares when i do well
back in the junior years when i got a mark i considered high
i always ran happily into the house to tell her
she never really seemed to care
now i don't even bother
i don't show her anything now


she keeps saying i won't get into uni
she says i won't get into uni because i'm not doing 4 unit maths
she says that i will fail my hsc
she says that when i fail
don't even think about going to tafe
she says when i fail
i find a job
i don't waste time going to tafe
she says tafe doesn't count as a uni

it's not my fault i didn't get the smart academic genes

it's not my fault

at a time when i need encouragement the most
i only get told how much of a failure i am
i'm guess i'm in this alone