nerves

 HELLO THERE...

let's start off with saying a huge thankyou to my awesome bro!

who stayed home today and didn't go to work in order to take me to the eisteddfod!

unfortunately nerves took over me...

hence me stuffing up T___T

another thing that added to my nerves was

my teacher decided to just mention as a "OH! by the way" thing last night in my lesson

THAT the majority of students playing would be sydney con students 

T__________________________T

so yes i was 6th to play and only like 6 people were there to play

but yea after listening to the people in front of me play i was like holy shit...

i was the only girl too T__T

anywayy yea i was too nervous today @__@

and i had too much going through my mind eg. thoughts of trials and whatnot T__T

MY DECISION 

i have decided to not go to play tmrw

because tmrw will be the BIGGEST waste of time

there are 21 people playing in the section i'm supposed to play in

it's a "sonata" section so most people will be playing COMPLETE sonatas which are 3-4 movements each

each sonata will take about 10-15minutes to play

my teacher only told me to play ONE movement...

so i'll be wasting 2 hours of travel time + 2-3hrs of listening to other people play

just to play my one movement 

either way it's not good...

if i go i waste time

if i don't go i waste money

but with my future on the line

i've decided not to go 

eisteddfods are becoming too nerve wracking for me now...

DINNER

i was so nervous today i couldn't even eat...

so i skipped lunch

i was pretty much starving by the time it was dinner

we drove past bankstown on the way to kogarah

and there's this nice pho place there

so there we went to eat dinner on the way back

i reckon it was yummy :D

but my mum&bro reckon flemington pho is nicer O:

or maybe it's cause i was just super hungry :O

 GOODNIGHT!

yes i should go to sleep

i just finished filling in the UAC application thing

duno if i did it correctly

but i've only entered one course

 B Design in Fashion and Textiles

hmm... there's like no other course i really want to do.....

you know you have to pay $25 to submit the application? O:

but i think you submit it later..

like before 30th september? and you pay then?

not sure....

but at least i've gone and filled it in :D
and made use of that pin we were sent (:

let me leave you with the cutest photos i came across :D

 i want a dog T___T

a baby pug!!!

i reckon pugs are SOOOO cute 

well they're eyes are so round and innocent and just OMGAHD cute :D!

 i'll get one... one day