emotions

 hello there people

this is going to be a huge rant post 

so bear with me

i think i'm going to sound pretty pathetic by the end of it..

aha.....

but i am seriously going through the biggest rollercoaster of emotions right now...

monday...

so i got my first assessment back on monday..

i predicted i was going to get like 60% after i did the trial examm

and 60% i got
the highest was 87% and the lowest was 28% T_______T

what surprised me was i got the highest for the section i did the worst at O___O.....

but yes i was having the biggest freak out...

it was the first time i've ever cried over an assessment task

i knew i wasn't going to get great

but i was just freaking out over this whole prospect of 'hsc'

so yes i cried..

but it didn't stop there

i went home discovered i got my stupid period when it had just ended before the freakin trials

and started getting really bad period pain which made me cry again

and then i took half a panadol and it still didn't go away

my mum shouted at me to go to bed and i started crying again

 i cried a total of three times yesterday and was chucking a fit and going absolutely crazy at home

i ended up going to bed at like 9:30 and woke up at 7AM and for some reason i was still feeling tired...

i HAD to get chatime on monday i HAD to

and i'm glad i did

i tried the brown rice green tea and holy freakin shit it's sooo nice 

it's my new favourite drink now...

it's nicer than uji matcha O:!!!

thankyou to jacky too

for just lending me a shoulder and being there for me x/

tuesday...

i knew we were getting textiles back today

and i was expecting the worst...

no i didn't do great

but i got the highest in the class xO

i got a whole 9% more than the person who got the second highest mark

i fulfilled my goal

i beat the one person i wanted to beat

so i am happy

though the mark wasn't that great...

i achieved what i wanted to achieve

and for the first time my theory was better...

we got music back too

music performance

wtf at the teacher

 i don't know how the hell she calculated the marks

hmm.... let's say i am extremely angry at a certain somebody 

who the teacher (whom i hate now even more so) has decided to favourite

and got a mark way higher than they rightfully got

like a whole 5-6 marks higher

i am really angry

like no joke angry

this person has been pissing me like crazy off as of late

and is the subject to a lot of bitching about in english lessons with erica and gus

i'm not trying to imply i am any better

but what this teacher has done is just not fair 

it's obvious they're their favourite

we're not stupid

we all know

so then we had this 4 and a half hour long lesson

which we managed to run away from cause our teacher went off to the eisteddfod

funnily enough as we were plotting to run away ms widmer walks in and says "you know the teachers are still you here"

and we start cracking up because we'd been caught out...

but lucky it was ok and we managed to run away in the end :D

went to top ryde with jade & tenzin

had a nice but fatty afternoon tea

BLAHBLAH

on a happier note

i came across this awesome picture of a shoe :D

domo :D!!!!

dno if it's real though O:
maybe pro-ly photoshopped?

anddd i think i'm going to get this pair of stockings :D

they're sooo pretty (in my opinion) :D

i originally wanted to get the jeans to the right but dnot think they have my size x'(

and it's better to try jeans on before buying

arghhhhh and i loooooved the design too x'(

ahh welll.... x'(